Monday, January 17, 2011

Uncontrollable Uncertainty

If someone were to ask me what the one thing I hate most in the world is, I would have to say being unsure. I like being in control. I like knowing that I'm making a sound, good decision and then I like following through with that decision. What I can't take, is being indecisive and unsure of myself. I don't like having to question my own decisions and actions, and lately I have found myself doing just that. I'm not going to go into any details, I just needed to write about it. Sometimes that helps. 
I like knowing what to expect, and when I make a decision based on an expected outcome, and then I realize that maybe that outcome I saw coming in my head was wrong, I become unsure and question myself. This must sound like a bunch of mumbo jumbo, but it makes sense in my head. Of course I believe I've already established that some things in my head may not be working properly, so who really knows! Maybe I'm just slightly insane. My first night alone in a while and this is what happens! I over think everything!


On a lighter, happier note, I would like to thank one of the bestest best friends in the world, Erin Pina, for always listening to my ramblings! Erin, you can always make me laugh and feel better about whatever it is that's bothering me! You are my Mexican twin! I don't know what I would do if I didn't have you to blab to and discuss and obsess over books with! haha I love you! :)

3 comments:

  1. Long night? LOL! I love you! Keep putting our thoughts down...it helps to keep them straight...and entertain men! ;D

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  2. I meant ME...NOT men! Hahahaha! Too early to be typing I guess! ;)

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  3. HAHAHAHAHA greatest comment ever!!! hahahaha

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